This past weekend I had a long trip ahead of me to Seattle for Green Fest. Although thrilled by the opportunity to speak on the main stage about humane education, I was dreading the travel. In the best case scenario, I would have a 17 hour trip, with three separate flights and a five-hour layover in Boston. Plus I was stuck in a middle seat across the country.When, about an hour from Portland, Oregon, a flight attendant asked if there were any medical personnel on board, I didn’t think much of it. I’ve been on lots of flights when this question has been asked, and it’s never been a big emergency. This time, however, it was. A man a few seats behind me had had a heart attack. Within minutes, he was laid in the aisle as two doctors tried valiantly to save him with CPR and oxygen. For 25 minutes they worked, shouting things as he flat-lined, contorting themselves in the aisle and standing on seats and armrests to position themselves properly during a choppy flight.
We made an emergency landing in eastern Washington, and the EMTs came on board and dragged the man down the aisle and off the plane on a cloth stretcher, but when I spoke to the doctor who was performing CPR on him (a cardiac anesthesiologist), he said that the man wasn’t going to make it.
And while we were a quiet group of passengers who didn’t interfere, intervene, or get riled up ourselves, we were also strangely unengaged. I talked to the two men on either side of me about what was happening, but as I felt tears ready to stream down my face, I quickly suppressed them. That a man was dying in our midst and the best we could do was sit quietly, was surreal. And even as I felt helpless and horrified, I also felt myself focusing selfishly on the delay in the flight and worried that I wouldn’t make it to Seattle that night. And then I found myself horrified that I could even be thinking about that while a man lay dying.
When I missed my connecting flight – the last to Seattle that night – I did my utmost to ensure that I got in line quickly to get a hotel, and took a seat at the front of the hotel van so that I could get in line quickly for a room at the hotel desk. I had a long weekend of tabling and speaking ahead of me, and I knew I’d be sleep-deprived enough without waiting in a long line for a bed for the night. The New Yorker in me came out in no time. And indeed, I was near the front of the line, and, it turned out, the last to be able to check into that particular hotel. The doctor who had worked to save this man’s life was one of many who would be transferred by the van to another hotel to wait in another line, only to awaken in a few short hours to continue his trip for a conference in Vancouver. I never even thought to let him take my spot. I regret that. I regret my lack of generosity. Oh, I had my big emotional reaction, sobbing the next morning as I thought about this man’s death, but I couldn’t even muster enough gratitude for this doctor’s efforts to give him a room sooner the night before. Granted I, too, had a big day and weekend ahead of me, but really. He had tried to save a man's life, while I sat quietly in my seat following instructions.
So now on my flight back home, I’m doing a bit of soul-searching. I’m thinking of the MOGO principle – to do the most good and the least harm to myself, other people, animals, and the environment – a principle I try to live by. I put myself ahead of everyone else when I disembarked that night; I did not live by a principle I profess to hold dear.
Zoe Weil, President, Institute for Humane Education
Author of Most Good, Least Harm, Above All, Be Kind: Raising a Humane Child in Challenging Times, and The Power and Promise of Humane Education
My TEDx talk: "The World Becomes What You Teach"
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4 comments:
We live, we learn. It's never too late to send a word of Thanks to the Universe for the TWO men who tried to save that other man's life -- to say a prayer for that deceased man's family,and to remember that even when we make mistakes, we are part of life's plan. WHO knows that the doctor who did not get that hotel room and had to go to another hotel room found something or someone or an inspiring word waiting for him at the next hotel. Once, I neglected to grab someone in time, as a car almost hit them -- I felt HORRIBLE for not doing so -- but they luckily did not get hit. I had 4 other opportunities to do so later in life -- and each time, I DID it, grabbing 2 people as a car bore down on them (at 2 different times), and yelling at 2 people in a smiliar situation, that I could not get to in time. We DO beat ourselves up for not doing the "right thing" but we LEARN and then must stop beating ourselves up. Thank you for sharing this with us. Someone who DID NOT CARE would not EVEN have felt ANY remorse. The next time will be smoother AND someone near you may need to be nearby to learn THEIR lesson. Peace
Sharing your guilty conscience here doesn't make your selfishness regarding the hotel or your self-centered navel gazing any less douchebaggey.
I don't understand why you posted this? What good does it serve other than to give you a chance to self-flagellate publicly, thereby making you feel better?
Anon, we all feel bad and question things we do, and we bring them out in the open to see what other humans think and do in such situations so we can judge our own reactions relative to the people around us. Maybe we learn our actions are more common than we thought, and maybe we learn that there was something else we could do.
As to the original poster, I was in church one morning when one of the elderly women fell over in her pew. The entire church (except for her friends, who held on to her) sat quietly or prayed while the priest gave her last rights and emergency services were called in. After she was taken out, we continued the service.
Quiet is good. If people act hysterical, it causes more problems for the person suffering and for the people who can do something to help.
People die; life goes on. It's not wrong to not feel the stunning grief and sadness of death concerning someone you don't know. As long as you don't feel like they deserved it, somehow, I feel like it's natural to quietly go on. Death is common. If we felt every other person's death as strongly as the death of those we love, the world would never stop grieving.
Anonymous, while we absolutely welcome people to challenge what we post here, to question it, or to disagree it with it, we do not welcome unkindness. The way your comment is written is unkind. Because konkonsn does such a nice job of responding, I'm leaving yours up, but please note that I won't allow such unkindness in future comments. Please find ways to share your views without resorting to rude, inflammatory, oversimplified and overgeneralized language choices (such as douchebaggery).
Peace,
Marsha
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